before continuing to read this read Jeremiah 1, Psalm 2, and Proverbs 28:1.
now then.
somewhere within Jeremiah chapter one God says:
1)you must go wherever I command you and say whatever I tell you
2) do not be intimidated by them or i will intimidate you in front of them
3):I'm not sending you to a people who speak some foreign language-im sending you to your own kind
in psalm 2 you have God laughing at the rulers because they think they know how to handle anything and can solve all the problems
and then there is proverbs 28:1 that says the wicked flee from anything but the righteous are as bold as lions
that was like melodyism cliff notes. go read it yourself if you want exact word for word.
God has placed all of this on my heart for quite a while now. but i refused to fully listen to him. and shame me he did. here's how:
yesterday in western civ 2 we were talking about social Darwinism and the teacher stated you can be Darwinist and Christian. i almost exploded. i didnt say anything. well i did. just not to where he or the entire class could hear anything.
\i fumed and muttered: you cannot be a christian and an evolutionist
this chic that sits next to me was like: yes you can because i am
and i said: no you are not!i will agree that you can believe in God/know OF Him and follow evolution. but you cannot be both.
and then she started to babble all the annoying lies i've heard before and so
i simply say: "ssshhh!!" since the teacher was still talking all this time and i was afraid i was missing notes.......
so today after the teacher handed back our tests he was like: you! melody! i have a bone to pick with you.
me: oh dear. should i not look at my test? is it that bad?
teacher: no your test is fine just hold on
and then after handing out all the test he goes to the front of class and casually sits down and he says how i was not agreeing with what he was saying yesterday and maybe on many days of his class. and then he spoke to this guy who was able to define something perfectly yesterday when he couldnt.
he then proceeds to say: i didnt mean to pick on just the two of you but y'all are not robots! all of you! you have a brain. you have freedom. speak out!
i was as red as a tomato from the time he said i have a bone to pick with you.
at the end of the class the chick and the dude told me what they had done. this chick and this dude that sit next to me went to the teacher and told him after i had left class about how i dont speak up when i disagree with what is being said in class. they were in my western civ 1 class so they have witnessed all my fuming and never yelling out what i believe in many matters with both western civ 1 and 2...
i was furious
then i thought of all those verses
and i was like...sigh
God you are always right
but i dont trust those two peoples
but i still love my history teacher
even though he isnt right
it wasnt bc of the teacher that i didnt speak up
it was bc i didnt want to hear any more crap from all those students who despise God and his children
but you know what
that didnt stop Jesus from speaking the Truth
i need to suck it up and be strong. my heart and flesh my grow weak but God is the strength of my heart and portion forever. im rejoicing that God followed through with His word and put me to shame. i shall be as bold as a lion. maybe i will sound irrational. but nothing can be as foolish as spreading lies or not doing anything to stop the spreading of lies.
oh and as for psalm 2. i knew that verse and many others that i could of used to defend my beliefs on the entire topic. but i let my cowardliness be in control. and it hurt. when i am bold as a lion then i am not in pain. if anything my silent fuming did make some great writing time in class. which i'll post those writings later.
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