freedom

warning: boring blog ahead! waste of time to read!

i am so free! i deleted my fbook account forever!
people can be all the angry they want (yeah that sounded grammatically correct)
i dont care. it was eating my time. sure. just set a time limit for yourself. yeah. that was not working. i didnt have the will power, nor did i enjoy being on there. ah. what bliss. :)

oops

people
so easy to run from
so easy to miss
loneliness proclaimed to be bliss

time has not healed any wounds
it only made new ones
here there and far away
a part from all we knew
where are those who taught us
where are the ones we love
we spent to much fighting
and now we see tears from above

lies about each other whispered in our ears
stay away from this one
or have years of friendship full of jeers

one mistake
choice to make
stay away
keep the pain
of loneliness

joyous strains

don't fear don't fear
that's what i need whispered in my ears
please Father take me away from here

the world and i can't get along
both think the other wrong

pain
You presence carries me through this
can you hear my joyous strains?

everything is meaningless
a chase after the wind
out the window has gone happiness

don't fear don't fear
where am i to go from here?

the last goodbye

nevermore shall i speak to you

nevermore will we sing

i came back

no time to speak

and you shut the door

thoughts of you from which i am free

this is it

never again will i come here

i showed you the key

but you want to stay in this cursed place

thank you for the music you shared

i will take it and make it a blessing to all

even if you choose to stop and never play again to crowds large or small

how joyful my heart is to say goodbye

you can be a fool

but oh! i can run without looking back

you cannot forget it is salvation you lack

even as you live as a stubborn mule

and on your death bed

you will see great Light about which you read

and you will say your last goodbye with a painful sigh

run and speak

i wanna run away

and just sing

and make music with all my soul

and dance and play
in the warm fields of my King
why is it here i must stay?
no ears are listening
hearts as black as coal
refusing to be made whole

wrong answer
those words make me feel like a deadly cancer
if you are so right
why then is your life filled with strife?
toils snares and dangers
bring me no fear
but you try to drag me into those dark places full of confusion
i will not nor cannot go there
i am in the Light and He is in me

why must i keep speaking to them?
they are not listening to the Word.
i know what You have told me so i declare Your News.
i cant do this. please take me away.
but You tell me to stay
and my heart cannot bear to go against Your will.
how much longer must i wait to leave and find Your people
some are here
but is it a lie that many more are way over there?

how easily they become offended and say i am wrong
but my heart does not break when they say these words
when i speak do i sound to them a crashing gong?
or have i become a buzzing bee
longing for them to find the cure.

repeat repeat repeat
how many other ways can i speak?
i shed no tears
let them be consumed in fears
i spoke
they scream
i walk away
their blood is on their hands
i shall keep running towards the promised land

coming back

silently i left

no reason

i slipped away

you calmly asked why

but you received no reply

at first my mind was at ease

surely someone else would find you

surely someone else could show you the Light

but my heart would not let me think this thought right

memories of you came and went

all the while i prayed for you to repent

time has not healed you

there you still lie on the ground

with the sword in your heart

blocking you from receiving Strength which gives healing

you say you left the race long ago

but i believe you were never in it to win

you may have cheered others on

but only for the audiences to be pleased with the show

i have not left this race

and now i come back for you

freedom still allows you to not join

nor do you need to let me come back

if silence is what you choose

i understand

for i did the same to you

Father don't let the bitter dream come true

silence

question

answers

truth

lies

truth

fragment

yes and no's

wrong way

this way

oh how the snake twists around me

innocence and wisdom collide

the battle rages on

serpent and dove

forgiveness i seek

for complicating simplicity

work and work

longing to relax

relaxing and getting behind on work

there is a time for work and a time to relax

voices beckoning to relax come to me at every direction

but the season is not here

and it may not come for a while

silence the voices that pull at you from every direction

part of you wants to not deal with any of this

thinking about it means you are worrying

no dear friend. that is a lie.

determination

endurance

this is what you must have

do not let those for whom you care distract you any longer

you are where you need to be

now grow

it is possible to be by the still waters as the winds of storms begin to blow

obey.

obey more.

do not let your desires conflict with God's amazing plan

self discipline many have not. will you become like them?

they think themselves in the right and yet they are still there.

you will be leaving soon and if you carry with you these bad habits they will become a burden

stretch your wings

become fit for flight

for in a moment your time there will be over and the new journey will begin

yes

yes and more yes!

keep going! look the crowd you thought against you now cheers you on

they never stopped cheering

you became disillusioned with the lies

but now you see

and though your heart aches for a different story you mustn't give up just because it isn't picture perfect for everyone

train

every way

every day

into the silence

then take flight

way up there you will proclaim the Truth and by the Truth many will be saved.